I've had this feeling before.
Six years ago, I had this feeling. This uneasiness that sat very heavily in my chest, my shoulders - in my whole body.
I remember having coffee that morning and thinking about the first time mom finally spoke to me, Christian and Belle about the day dad died. She said she suddenly had a dull ache, right in the middle of the day.
She had no reason to feel that way and she tried to shake it off, but it never went away.
It stayed with her while she made breakfast, when she watched us all eat at the table, when Belle spilled milk all over dad's shirt and even when she kissed dad goodbye.
Her instincts told her something bad was going to happen, but at that point, so many bad things had happened that she thought it was her paranoia and anxiety acting up.
So
Aksara